If it's not one thing it's another. Can't I just be content in the position I'm in? The past is in the past and that's where it will always stay. I can't change that. No one can. Yet my heart longs for things that I can't bring back. Why?
I finally rid my heart and soul of that waste of a person and now they miss someone else. Almost everyday I have some odd flashback or another. There are songs that bring on the nostalgia that will randomly get stuck in my head, so I've downloaded them all in hopes of getting used to them. Maybe that way I can listen to them without seeing and hearing my summer in the back of my mind.
Confusing? Me? No.
Fuck my life? Yes.
I wish I could go back. WHY!? The past is the past. The past is the past! It's not coming back. I guess that's just another epiphany I suppose I'll have to wait for. It would be nice if it would hit me sooner this time around...
Being attracted to assholes...SO much fun.
I love sarcasm.
I need to be impressed again...I need to be treated well and respected. I'm trying my best and that would be an amazing reward for my self-improvement. I want a guy to old-school court me, being both respectful and patient and acting like a complete gentleman. That is what I want most. I want to be taken on a real date...I want chivalry. Being treated well is something I so long for and respond to very positively. That's all I really want...it isn't hard...it isn't asking all that much. It's all I want.
Why isn't there a single guy out there who can do that for me without completely fucking me over shortly after?
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