"Thought that I was the exception- I could rewrite your addiction. You could have been the greatest but you'd rather get wasted....Want to be your lover, not your fucking mother. Can't be your savior- I don't have the power. I'm not gonna stay and watch you circle the drain."
If there's one thing I've come to find throughout all of high school, it's that no one person can change another. Screw academics, the biggest lesson I've learned had nothing to do with school itself. No matter how hard you try or how much time you invest in another person, you're never going to change them. If they treat people like shit, you better love getting treated like shit or get the hell out of that relationship. If they decide they want to waste their lives on drugs, either you're going to get fucked up with them or tell them to fuck themselves, because there's no way they're going to stop for you.
I was in that exact situation. I wasted years keeping (or trying to keep) someone clean only to find out recently that all of that was for nothing. So, that finally sent me over the edge. All care I had for that person vanished and I dropped them out of my life and mind like a hot potato. I'm not wasting anymore time trying to do the impossible - Even if it means saving someone.
What I'm trying to say to everyone who thinks they're going to be the one to positively influence and change that troubled person they care for is: You're not going to, so don't waste your time. Especially if their trouble is any illegal substance. They're either going to A) lie to you, B) treat you like shit, C) both, D) die, or E) go to jail.
If you want that, go right ahead and be with them. Have fun.
If you don't believe me, knock yourself out trying to prove me wrong.
If you're intelligent, trust me.
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