Drunken Babbling

So, I definitely wrote all of this last night when I got home but Blogger decided to shit out on me when I finally decided to write something. Awesome.

Anyways, here you go:

If there is one word I could use to describe myself under the influence, it would be impressionable. Like I stated in my last post, I'm opinionated and I am an individual, but I can be extremely impressionable. This is most evident when I've been drinking. If someone says something mean to me, I'll immediately start bawling. If someone kisses me, I'll kiss back. If someone plays me dark music, I'll want to be dark with it. Everything I hear, everything I see, whatever affects me makes me who I am at the time. If that makes any sense. My senses and what they conceive mold my inebriated mind.

My mom always tells me I shouldn't drink. She tells me my long history of alcoholism and my predisposition to an addictive personality will cause me severe problems in the future if I'm not careful. So far, I see no problem. I'm fine....So far. I do take what she says into consideration but I don't drink very much... At least not anymore. After last summer I've learned the art of moderation. Now it's only beer or wine. Something to take the edge off, or just to have some fun in some environments. Either way, I promise that I'm fine and I truly believe that. I would hope my mom believes me, too. Even more importantly, I hope it stays that way. I would never want to be dangerous and I would never want to hurt anyone that I love the way some of my loved ones have hurt me before. Anytime that happens, I still love them the same, just as I know they'd love me the same. That doesn't matter, though. I would never want to hurt them regardless.

To be honest, I don't really know where I was going with this. It's just more babbling of the intoxicated mind. Funny really, that the intoxicated mind would choose to write on the topic of intoxication itself...Anyways, I hope this was some insight for anyone who cares as to what I think and feel when influenced...

Until next time...