I'm Stuck

It's always a shame when everything you go through is nothing like what you expected. It's not fair when one mistakes sets you back a whole lifetime. It's enough to kill you when the one thing that motivates you doesn't apply anymore...when everything you've been working for never comes. What do you work for then? Where does one find motivation when all muse disappears? Who can answer me? Why can't I move on?

I'm stuck. Every moment I'm there I can pretend things never changed. I feel happy, at ease and in love with everything again. I feel like myself. Why does reality have to hit so hard every time? Does anyone ever get used to it? Why can't I ever find these answers, and why do I keep allowing this to happen to me? Isn't the K.O. punch in the face every time my logic kicks back in enough to teach me anything? I guess not.

I wish I knew how to escape it.

How can I keep going?
How can I move on?
How can I do all of this and still keep myself sane...safe...?
How?